hey all... i dunno whether anyone sees this or not la but i'm jus gonna continue typing... so ya...
been working latenights these few days,wad with the camps that were outsourced to our company and those regular schools that always do camps with us... so ya... been busy planning those camps,especially the camps for the regulars aka old customers,cos mus do up realli gd ones for them cos known them for quite long le... used to enjoy this process la,but somehow nowadays, i feel a little too tired lor...
i mean it's like when i first got this job and got into the company as a junior trainer,i had to go through a series of courses like first-aid,archery,rock-climbing,kayaking and etc... it was fun lor...or at least i somehow feel much more happier than now lor... i mean i used to be able to jus hide behind my boss(now my partner...),Rayne's back and jus be a simple trainer and jus help out whenever i could and jus simply have fun with the campers...
But all this changed when i was promoted... i tot i was going to be promoted to be senior trainer but instead, i got promoted to be the head trainer,jus like Rayne... i mean everything changed,from jus receivin orders from Rayne,to sharin the responsiblities of bein in charge of the team, to becomin partner with him and havin to delegate work to my team of trainers, having to learn how to handle all sorts of situations and to also learn how all e systems and workload of everyone in the camp and etc... i mean it's crazy la... asking a 19 yr old guy to lead a whole team of experienced trainers who are all at least older than me de lor... I mean Rayne has been helpin me a lot but i can't possibly depend on him all the time...
Some people tell me this,"u heng wad... got e promoted to head trainer eh... pay at least triple u know..." i mean ya...it's true la... the pay did increase la but not as much as triple and is at least monthly compared to last time pay by amt of camp attended...(psps...cannot tell u my current pay buut quite ok onli...)somehow they jus think that get paid more is gd,but the prob is this means more jobs and responsibilities... meaning that more stress lor... and the worse thing is,Rayne gave me the worse part of the job to me:job delegation for the junior trainers...( i am in charge of them onli...)
i mean helloo... i am jus 19 eh... i tried la... i get Nelson to be in charge of kayaking, Leo to Food, Yan Ni to High Elements,Hui Yi to Team building activities,Shi ting to wet activities,Ah Jie and Hui Ting to archery and Man Xiang and Hui Xian to rock climbing... maybe u think quite ok so far wad... but somehow it's not ok... i mean i want to trust my team and just let them do it by themselves but somehow it doesn;t work out that way lor... i keep teaching and telling them how to handle certain common situations over and over again but every single time e situation occurs,they either panic,ignore,dun giv a damn or jus come running to me for solutions... i mean i can;t possibly help them out every single time somethin happens right? they hav to learn for themselves how to handle ma... i need to let them learn through experience so that they can do it by themselves and also lead the new trainers in the future... i mean it's stressful for me u know... it's like macam everywhere i go or everything i do i keep thinkin of the camp stuff,regardless of when i visit the toilet,at home,during lunch break,personal time,work leave/break,even when i go out with my SP wushu friends,i would eventually stone in one corner,or even during the time when i play pool with them and worse still is,before i sleep or going to fall asleep i also think of the camp stuff...
I'm a veri relax kind of person la so when i hyper,i can keep going hyper throughout the camp, but when i emo, i also emo throughout the camp,even if i force myself to hype up for the camp,my trainers and even my campers can sense that i emo lor...but I'm also the kind of person that can seriously scold people and when i mean scold people,i mean seriously realli go after each and every single one person and seriously yell at them... but the problem here is, i cannot afford to go harsh on them...but when i be nice to them,they take this niceness from me for granted...the y walk all over me when i talk to them or jus simply ignore or jus simply dun do their allocated jobs... i mean i feel like jus kicking them out of the company to instill some discipline la but somehow cannot because Rayne keep telling me that not enough people le...mus treasure them... cannot lose them... so ya... hav to tahan and babysit them more lor...
i mean me and Rayne's team is now in this stupid situation whereby we cannot lose any more trainers but the stupid thing is,these people jus simply dun wake up...they simply jus expect probs to be handled by me and Rayne when it happens... they are trainers eh... hav to take
responsibility ma... i jus hope they wake up lor... but the sian thing is,none of them even wake up or even bother to wake up... Wad's worse is that the senior trainers that automatically wake up when scolded are slowly getting tired of being automatic...so how?? tell me how?? that's why me and Rayne feel that we need Hui Ting and Hui Xian(They are the leaders of the Junior Trainers) to seriously wake up and start learning how to take control of things around the campsite...
Anyways, the 4d3n camp last friday was quite ok la... though i had to rush to the campsite deep in the nite after my Wushu training... but wasn't realli able to go into hyper cos i was too tired from the training from fri...and i had to leave e campsite for half a day on Sat cos i had family matters...so ya... though i pulled my thigh muscle and was unable to train much that day,we did play Captain's ball followed by "Tie Gao Yao" till abt 7.30,which is uncommon...but wad made me emo was Rayne's reaction when i went down to the campsite deep in the nite when they do debriefing for the day...he gave me the typical sian and diao face so ya... sian diao...
oh ya and SP wushu club's CCA recruitment was over... was helping out at the booth for all 3 days(Wed-Fri),so ya... recruitment was quite ok... but somehow the turnout for the FO camp wasn't realli gd and i sort of hear some negative things abt the club's FO camp meeting... so ya...
guess i have to look forward to the upcoming SP Wushu FO Camp this coming Friday(aka tomorrow) to see wad's goin to happen... guess i jus hav to suck thumb and tahan longer in the case of my camp company... but i wonder how long can i go on tahaning till i raise e flag called tak boleh tahan....
bambooidiot
left; 12:31 AM
hey all... i know i have been neglecting this blog a lot ever since i have restarted it...
been realli busy la,or rather not realli been in the mood to update this blog nowadays...
dunno how to describe la,but somehow i jus dun feel like blogging lor... abit like blog already also no one read so neva realli blog lor... somehow jus dun feel like it...
i know some of you guys may say that it is quite easy to maintain this blog,jus come type somethin when i feel like it or when i free,but to me it's rather difficult cos there realli is not much for me to blog abt cos i dun realli go out much,though mostly is go out with SP Wushu club de people go play pool or jalan jalan but since now school reopen,not much time to do this kind of things lor... so ya...
anyways,once again, i promise that i will at least blog a bit this time round...so ya...
bambooidiot
left; 12:24 AM
Yay!!!
Finally exams over le!!! this marks the start of holidays... but for me, somehow holiday not consider start for me cos i hav still hav to finish up 2 projects,JSPG and DEUI... but e gd thing is that both jus need a little polishing up and i can hand in le... so shld be able to do it by this wk... and after that,officially holidays!!!And officially end of Yr 2!!!
but somehow cannot rejoice sia...dunno why... but a bit sad though...not cos end of yr 2 cos i not realli close with my class people so ya...can't seem to find reason...but wadeva la... Holiday! here i come!!!
bambooidiot
left; 7:32 PM
been realli busy these past few months...but wadeva...
haven been able to update myself with my surroundings,or rather,been too busy to do so...
This meant that i dun hav time to view my meis' de blogs...(Shi Min mei and esther mei)...
i know...i sound like an idiot but i'm sorry for being unable to update myself regarding wad has happened around you gals...BUT i hav done it...i hav officially updated myself regardin u gals jus now by reading yr blogs,all the way from December09 to the most current ones,so ya...basically i know most of the things that hav been happening to you 2...
And this is specially for Shi Min mei...
Sorry...i'm realli sorri...cos i haven been updating myself regardin u by readin yr blog...so ya...
think i said certain things that shouldn't hav if i knew abt it...(aka yr previous relationship)i realli didn't know...guess i'm not a veri gd gor eh...AND now that i know abt this,i hav decided to atone for this...i hav decided to punish myself by not takin lunch...regardless of at home or outside...At least till u hav read this post and forgave me...so ya...i'm realli sorri mei...for not sensing this...for not sensing somethin was wrong when i smsed u...guess i'm sort of a big failure as a gor eh...
bambooidiot
left; 7:42 AM
Heyaz...
To those who have been keeping themselves busy with my taiwanese blog...
thks for staying and seein...but it has been quite stagnant(jus like this one...)
so ya...might consider reviving it again like this one but that one might be my chinese or drawing one,while this is the english one... plus the taiwan one,most people got probs using it...meanin the part abt leaving comments/tagging...(can leave comment one...but jus dunno how it works...even i also dunno how...so ya...)
anyways,like wad i hav said,i am officially reopening this blog as of this day on...
will try to keep it alive but no promises ok?
been realli busy though...with final chionging of assignments and Final Sem papers for yr 2 sem 2... so ya...holidays comin soon...lookin forward to it...
left; 7:36 AM
so...as promised in e previous post...here 's e pics...
left; 9:14 PM
yoz... psps... got quite a lot of things to post now...but not from today de...sorry if it gets 2 wordy...this time got more pics...
shall start with the day before...aka tues...><
tuesday 10 feb
hmmmz...let c...wad did i do hah?? oh ya...count money...
was watchin tv when my sis started calculatin ang pao money...
Sis: oei...
Me: wad...(press SCV remote)
Sis: count ang pao money already?
Me: No...(press SCV remote again...trying to find somethin 2 watch)
Sis: why dun count?(takes her ang paos from her cupboard)
Me: not now la...(Finally found somethin to watch)
(MOM comes in...)
Mom: wad u doin now?
Me: watch tv...
Sis: count ang pao
Mom: why u dun count yrs...
Me: huh? dun wan la...
Mom: why? dun care la... i count for u...
Me:sianz... orh...(take ang paos from cupboard with the sian face)
Then spen one hr count ang pao money...
Not bad la...this yr got abt 210 dollars for ang pao...
economy recession still can get this amt not bad le... hahaz...XD
then after countin ang pao money still not enough...
then go count my coins savin...
count like for 1 plus hr...
then finally count finish damn happy...
total is 250...yay...XD
eh... i not rich k...i jus save a lot...
so ya... then prepare for TBCM(Technical Business Communications)paper 2morrow...
then slp liao...
Wed 11 Feb
woke up at 8.30am when my test is 3.30pm...
cos i told mom that i 10.30 lesson...sianz...O.o
then slack abit at home before goin school...
reached school at abt 9 plus...
stone at e benches at FC6...
read online manga(Naruto) cos tot still got time study...!><
then study abit of the ppt slides...
then went all e way to e other side of school to get foolscap at popular...
then when i walk back to fc6,my fren from DMIT club told me how he screwed up his paper durin sem 1...then he told me paper is provided after i bought the foolscap...sianz...WTH...O.o
then went for the paper at 3.30
tot the paper was easy when i look through...
tot got a lot of time to do so relac and do slowly...
then realise that not enough time to finish e paper then chiong like siao...
left 20 min and still got last qn...total got 5 qn for e paper and e last qn is 30 marks...and it's letter writing...OMG!!!
left 5 min still chiongin e paper... managed 2 finish everythin jus on time...heng ah!!><
then hand in paper and walk out that time,realize that my hand de veins all poppin out le...like siao lor...neva write or do test until like that de...O.o
will show e pic later...
then went home after that...
looked for my dictionary at night cos next day got CRS paper(Critical Reasoning Skills)then my fren ask me whether got extra or not...
got 1 small and 1 big de...then was thinkin whether to bring skool and lend him or not...then realise bag damn heavy cos of the stack of foolscap...decided to bring the small one onli...
then went to slp after watchin tv...
today,Thurs,12 Feb
woke up at 7.30am cos paper is 9am
then prepare until like 8.30 be4 leavin my house for skool...
mom kept askin me to go skool when i trying to relac...
then my fren, sijie called me when i was on e bus...say wan to meet me at e bus stop after dover...dunno why...in e end also no reason...O.o
then we crap abit outside e classroom...
Sijie:eh...
Me:wad...
Sijie:got bring dictionary?
Me:(give e diao face)ya...
Sijie:cos if dun bring will fail
Me:why?
Sijie:cos if no dictionary and dunno how 2 spell a word then die lor...
Me:diao...
Sijie:then got foolscap?
Me:ya...(Take out e whole stack from bag)
Sijie:oh ya...forgot u bought yest...
Me:dots...(show diao face)
Sijie:yay!! got sponsor le...
Me:wad sponsor?
another guy call shawn pops out...
Shawn:eh...u all got foolscap or not?
Sijie:of course!!we got sponsor here ma...(points to me holding the foolscap)
Me:(show e diao face)ya...i sponsor u all ma...lol
then everyone laugh like siao...then e lecturer come...
went in and did e paper... then is do argumentative letter...then is mus start with a hook that kind...O.o(if dunno wad is a hook,can ask me when u see me...)
got 5 qns then mus choose one 2 write...
qn1. "Censorship insults a person's intelligence". Do you agree?
qn2. "Singaporean Youth are too concerned abt pursuin success and wealth, and not concerned enough abt helpin those less fortunate than they." How far, in your opinion, is this true?
qn3."Science never provides solutions-it only poses more probs". Do u agree?
qn4."A worls without Racism is an impossible dream." do u agree with this statement?
qn5."The singapore govt shld do more to encourage its citizens to be environmentally friendly." do u agree?
in e end chose qn4 after readin for 20 min...cos couldn't find arguments for e other qns...
wrote like mad again cos lose 20 min...but this time was better cos managed to finish e paper 5 min before pens down...managed to read through my essay... shld be no prob ba...hahaz...><
well...goin to prepare for 2morrow de TBCM interview le... need 2 wear formal...
sianz... and my lecturer still haven send me my edited copy of resume and letter...and 2morrow need 2 use le... sianz...O.o
well that's all for now...
will put up e pics on another post cos this one 2 long le...
jia youz everyone...
holidays comin soon...yay!!!
left; 8:27 PM
