hey all... i dunno whether anyone sees this or not la but i'm jus gonna continue typing... so ya...
been working latenights these few days,wad with the camps that were outsourced to our company and those regular schools that always do camps with us... so ya... been busy planning those camps,especially the camps for the regulars aka old customers,cos mus do up realli gd ones for them cos known them for quite long le... used to enjoy this process la,but somehow nowadays, i feel a little too tired lor...
i mean it's like when i first got this job and got into the company as a junior trainer,i had to go through a series of courses like first-aid,archery,rock-climbing,kayaking and etc... it was fun lor...or at least i somehow feel much more happier than now lor... i mean i used to be able to jus hide behind my boss(now my partner...),Rayne's back and jus be a simple trainer and jus help out whenever i could and jus simply have fun with the campers...
But all this changed when i was promoted... i tot i was going to be promoted to be senior trainer but instead, i got promoted to be the head trainer,jus like Rayne... i mean everything changed,from jus receivin orders from Rayne,to sharin the responsiblities of bein in charge of the team, to becomin partner with him and havin to delegate work to my team of trainers, having to learn how to handle all sorts of situations and to also learn how all e systems and workload of everyone in the camp and etc... i mean it's crazy la... asking a 19 yr old guy to lead a whole team of experienced trainers who are all at least older than me de lor... I mean Rayne has been helpin me a lot but i can't possibly depend on him all the time...
Some people tell me this,"u heng wad... got e promoted to head trainer eh... pay at least triple u know..." i mean ya...it's true la... the pay did increase la but not as much as triple and is at least monthly compared to last time pay by amt of camp attended...(psps...cannot tell u my current pay buut quite ok onli...)somehow they jus think that get paid more is gd,but the prob is this means more jobs and responsibilities... meaning that more stress lor... and the worse thing is,Rayne gave me the worse part of the job to me:job delegation for the junior trainers...( i am in charge of them onli...)
i mean helloo... i am jus 19 eh... i tried la... i get Nelson to be in charge of kayaking, Leo to Food, Yan Ni to High Elements,Hui Yi to Team building activities,Shi ting to wet activities,Ah Jie and Hui Ting to archery and Man Xiang and Hui Xian to rock climbing... maybe u think quite ok so far wad... but somehow it's not ok... i mean i want to trust my team and just let them do it by themselves but somehow it doesn;t work out that way lor... i keep teaching and telling them how to handle certain common situations over and over again but every single time e situation occurs,they either panic,ignore,dun giv a damn or jus come running to me for solutions... i mean i can;t possibly help them out every single time somethin happens right? they hav to learn for themselves how to handle ma... i need to let them learn through experience so that they can do it by themselves and also lead the new trainers in the future... i mean it's stressful for me u know... it's like macam everywhere i go or everything i do i keep thinkin of the camp stuff,regardless of when i visit the toilet,at home,during lunch break,personal time,work leave/break,even when i go out with my SP wushu friends,i would eventually stone in one corner,or even during the time when i play pool with them and worse still is,before i sleep or going to fall asleep i also think of the camp stuff...
I'm a veri relax kind of person la so when i hyper,i can keep going hyper throughout the camp, but when i emo, i also emo throughout the camp,even if i force myself to hype up for the camp,my trainers and even my campers can sense that i emo lor...but I'm also the kind of person that can seriously scold people and when i mean scold people,i mean seriously realli go after each and every single one person and seriously yell at them... but the problem here is, i cannot afford to go harsh on them...but when i be nice to them,they take this niceness from me for granted...the y walk all over me when i talk to them or jus simply ignore or jus simply dun do their allocated jobs... i mean i feel like jus kicking them out of the company to instill some discipline la but somehow cannot because Rayne keep telling me that not enough people le...mus treasure them... cannot lose them... so ya... hav to tahan and babysit them more lor...
i mean me and Rayne's team is now in this stupid situation whereby we cannot lose any more trainers but the stupid thing is,these people jus simply dun wake up...they simply jus expect probs to be handled by me and Rayne when it happens... they are trainers eh... hav to take
responsibility ma... i jus hope they wake up lor... but the sian thing is,none of them even wake up or even bother to wake up... Wad's worse is that the senior trainers that automatically wake up when scolded are slowly getting tired of being automatic...so how?? tell me how?? that's why me and Rayne feel that we need Hui Ting and Hui Xian(They are the leaders of the Junior Trainers) to seriously wake up and start learning how to take control of things around the campsite...
Anyways, the 4d3n camp last friday was quite ok la... though i had to rush to the campsite deep in the nite after my Wushu training... but wasn't realli able to go into hyper cos i was too tired from the training from fri...and i had to leave e campsite for half a day on Sat cos i had family matters...so ya... though i pulled my thigh muscle and was unable to train much that day,we did play Captain's ball followed by "Tie Gao Yao" till abt 7.30,which is uncommon...but wad made me emo was Rayne's reaction when i went down to the campsite deep in the nite when they do debriefing for the day...he gave me the typical sian and diao face so ya... sian diao...
oh ya and SP wushu club's CCA recruitment was over... was helping out at the booth for all 3 days(Wed-Fri),so ya... recruitment was quite ok... but somehow the turnout for the FO camp wasn't realli gd and i sort of hear some negative things abt the club's FO camp meeting... so ya...
guess i have to look forward to the upcoming SP Wushu FO Camp this coming Friday(aka tomorrow) to see wad's goin to happen... guess i jus hav to suck thumb and tahan longer in the case of my camp company... but i wonder how long can i go on tahaning till i raise e flag called tak boleh tahan....
bambooidiot
left; 12:31 AM
